Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Fears

Creating a graphic novel and putting it out there for everyone to read is at times—a scary experience. Every time I put out the latest update, I can’t help feeling nervous. Here are the top six fears I have while working on my current graphic novel.
1. Fire. Fires in any form alarm me. I’m like: what if my pages catch on fire, or if my computer is engulfed in flames—then I’ll have to redo some pages, and rewrite the plot scripts, and go shopping for a new computer…ugh, what a pain.
2. Artwork not improving. I fear reaching a stopping point where my art isn’t getting much better, and at the same time, it isn’t great.
3. Killing the plot. I may make a mistake in planning what happens next, and the reader’s interest is effectively killed, and they’ll be like “Reading this is a waste.”  That would suck.
4. Losing motivation. One day I wake up, and I’m like, “I don’t feeling doing  Mascara anymore. I quit.” I really don’t want that to happen. I still feel good about the story right now. Let’s hope that continues.
5. Not being able to write any more graphic novels after Mascara. I’m afraid that this graphic novel is all I’m able to churn out, and nothing after it—plotwise--could be as good. I’ll just hope that by then my artwork will be good enough to mask a weaker plot. Or better yet—I’ll hope that I’ll still have the ability to  think of unique stories.
6.  Alien space monkeys. If alien space monkeys break into my house, they’ll eat all the pages I haven’t scanned yet while I’m sleeping, because to them, paper tastes like bananas. And then I would have to redraw those pages all over again, and I’ll be late updating my comic.